Ray gun

Tonight feels lonely despite everything that's happened today, the company and the laughs. Right now I am sitting here 4:44 AM and the night seems like it can stretch endlessly all the way to infinity, and no phone calls or tv or writing that I can imagine will bring any comfort. Music's my only salvation tonight.

I've always wondered about why people feel lonely, what loneliness really is and do we really spend our lives just occupying ourselves to get away from ourselves? And why some days it feels so good being physically alone but some moments like these singularity becomes very, hollow? I can't find a word for it.

Rootless skin

It would be nice to live in the early ages before science and religion, facts, air travel... Spending unlimited time wondering if the firmament is a solid cover, and what lies between the earth and the sky.

These days it feels like all brilliant things have been said and discovered and repeated a thousand times, and there isn't even time to think of anything new because I'm tangled up in a schizophrenic frenzy just trying to catch up with all that has been, and I'll never even finish that.

And even when I'm not trying my thoughts are of mundane superficial things like finding a birthday dress which is really annoying because I am wanting to think and do other things, but I have to deal with one thought at a time and some of these just, linger for really long and take up more than their fair share of time.

Roll up

A picture grabbed from Facebook to signify that the Bangkok pictorial post is under way... And that I love my bffs. So fucking much.

School's this big black hole of dizzy corridors where people walk slowly, and bookshelf mazes that leave me feeling so tired. The weeks are going to by very quickly and deadlines will soon catch up with me.

But as for now, I'd say that days are wonderful and weekends are golden. Excited for Gab's birthday party tonight!